Please pray for me I am a believer of Christ since childhood ..But I encountered so many trial and trying to understand the meaning of all of it ..I have alot of pain from past that cant let go and I strongly believe that because of that I cant have a beautiful prosperous future..And my husband is deep in alchohol for 5 years my marriage is falling apart ..I had to go to court so they can keep him away from me and kids things are out of control . I pray and inside I just feel empty..and sad and If I could I would sleep day and night I have no energy to do anything ..Any every step I take I seem to screw up like this week I got a ticket because I was driving and talking to my mother about her problems and didn't realize I went over speed limit then dropped my phone in water got to buy new one ..my husband took my only vehicle had to buy new one with the little savings I had ..and yesterday I got in car accident ..and to tell u the truth dont know how it happened so fast ..I have court Friday..so much I am a mom of 4 I need to function and me and my oldest daughter have struggles to she hates me for staying with my husband that likes his life so vivid ..my first husband committed suicide and was on drugs ..I really am trying to figure my life ..But right now I cannot carry what I have on my plate.