Everything is so dark. I feel as if I could die. This dryness comes in waves. I have prayed a very long time and I cannot see any visible help in a number of situations. Yet I persist. It is extremely important to me that E gets everything straightened out and makes good choices. I realize that most likely nothing will turn out the way I hope, so I have to trust in Jesus, which isn't the easiest thing to do right now. Darkness. I can't handle much more of it. Please God-- help me. I cry out daily. Where are you?