Please pray I can be more patient with my young grandsons. They've been allowed to live like feral animals. They've seen too much violence in their lives, and have had to learn how to forage through whatever bit of food they can scrounge up at home. Their mother used to sleep all day and it's a wonder they're alive. They do the scariest and most dangerous things imaginable and there's no child locks that can keep them inside, so they've been known to run into the street like an Olympic track star, and get inside a locked garage where there are power tools and other dangerous stuff. I'm babysitting and so grateful because it was a couple of years of not getting to see them because I said something when I stopped by one day in the winter and the 4 year old was standing in their mostly empty pond outside with no supervision when it was 16° and he was completely naked. Mom was asleep and my son was working. Their mom has a job now, so they are learning how to shift to a more normal lifestyle. It's very hard to stay calm sometimes, because the one who's 5 now has kicked me, scratched me until I'm shredded, punched me in the stomach, and bit a chunk out of my arm. He is unnaturally strong! I'm weaker than I wish I was at only 69 years old, so today I just cried and cried when I got home. I watch them at my son's house because it's safer, and their maternal grandmother comes to pick them up around 2. I watch them from 7:30am until 2 and she watches them from 2 to 8 until their mom gets home. There's been so much tension in our entire family that I'm so scared to say anything wrong or do something that sets her off. I lost too much time with them and now I finally have this chance again. It's been great on many days but lately either they've gotten a LOT worse, or I'm just a worthless piece of incompetent garbage that can't handle the stress life's been throwing my way. Please pray for us. I was at the end of my rope when their other grandmother showed up early with only a minute before she arrived. The granddaughter called and said she would be there shortly and to make sure they were fully dressed with shoes on (they've been living like animals in the wild so that takes a bit of time.) And then I had to walk outside in the 100° weather to unlock the gate. She was annoyed everything wasn't ready and said she didn't think her daughter worked today (she knew). I'm pretty sure everyone hates me because I wasn't as pulled together and all smiles and compliments like usual. Please pray her family still likes me. We've suffered so many feuding episodes over the last ten years and now things are good. She literally JUMPED A FENCE today to get in because I didn't get to the gate in time. I was getting their clothes and shoes on plus a bunch of other things ready and had less than a minute warning. One misstep on my part and my son will have his life and family destroyed. Those people are VOLATILE to say the least and can cause an apocalyptic hellscape to manifest in a single moment of misunderstanding. I don't want my son and grandchildren to suffer when his fiance and mother start a war again.