This prayer request is for total healing to any possible damage / injury I may have received to my body.
I experience, at times, a type of paralysis, in which during those times my body stiffens- I become as “stiff as a board”- and seems like I am unable to move.
I don’t think that this is good for my body, as it feels extremely strenuous and full of extreme tension, that I can be overworking my body.
This has been going on for some time but within the last weeks, during a period of several days, I experienced this form of paralysis more than ever, it happening numerous times and for long periods of time, and now I feel like maybe I’ve suffered injury or damage to certain body parts / organs because since then I’ve felt things in those certain bodily areas of which I’m not sure how to describe what I’ve felt, what I feel might be described as or include: softness / tenderness / uncomfortableness / aches / soreness / pain.
I’m concerned I may have overtaxed / overworked some part or parts of my body, I don’t know.
I prayer for a miracle be done to my body for total healing.
Also, for the removal of this issue of paralysis, the emotion or drive behind it to me is fear. It sounds demonic. I feel like I’m being spiritually attacked. I feel like I’m cursed.
I think forgiveness may be needed from me regarding this issue, both for this activity and for any cause(s) behind the activity, as I don’t think that the Creator approves of this activity or that it’s from Him, as I think it’s evil.
While I have prayed for forgiveness about this issue, I don’t feel, at least, fully responsible for committing this kind of act as I don’t feel like I am complete control of my actions during those times, I feel an overwhelmedness. right before and during the time this paralysis happens, it feels beyond my control, that I’m being taken over.
I don’t want to commit this activity but it seems to me that I can’t help it.
I don’t know what the cause(s) of it could be or how to resolve this issue (I can become paralyzed at anytime, it can take place at anytime whether in the day or in night), I don’t know what I have done or could be doing (like any sin) to bring this issue upon me. I’ve prayed about it but I still suffer this affliction.
May I both ask for forgiveness and seek & commit repentance as much as I am to do on my part in this issue and may our Creator grant me full forgiveness and a solution be given and made so that this will never happen to me again.