Dear Heavenly Father,
I can't sleep. I'm asking for prayers for my boyfriend as of now his stomach cancer hasn't changed but seems like he's ok. He is a Veteran and has gone on 4 to 5 tours he suffers from combat PTSD I almost feel it's more complex PTSD. Things we going ok he mentioned he's getting treatment at VA twice a week he's having a difficult time sleeping and tonight it scared me he talked about how he doesn't want to live anymore. He lives in TX I'm in CA I have been trying to get us moving on plans to live together. I was being patient with him tonight listened but also told him please do your best to be in the here and now. To be present. That I understand his feelings are very intense at the moment. He went quiet I assume he fell asleep. VA has him taking sleeping medication. I'm up but I sent messages still checking on him and will continue to do so. Father, please forgive me for all my sins. I ask of you to continue to lay your healing hands on John and rid of any cancer and any mental pains he deals with in combat PTSD. I'm doing my best to love and support him while I have my own health issues plus I'm in school to try to finish my undergraduate degree that I should have finished many years ago. I give all my love and support to John he's my best friend and I love him. We did get in a fight because he wasn't being nice to me but I also do understand it may be the triggers from PTSD happening. I do try to take care of myself first so I can be strong for him. Please surround John with your undying grace and love, Father. I want to thank you for always loving and supporting John and I. I will continue to pray everyday for John and myself. I will keep hope and faith alive. Thank you. John and I love you. In Jesus' name Amen