Dear Heavenly Father,
I sent requests for prayers for my boyfriend John, whose fighting terminal stomach cancer, combat PTSD (with 20+ years of military/govt service plus 4 deployments/tours to Iraq and Afghanistan), he financially supports his blind older brother who also is an alcoholic. John is currently in UK where he's originally from he had to go take care of some things. Keep him safe while he is away in UK. Also, I have so much anxiety over his codependency on his blind brother Mike. Mike has within the last year has blamed me for things I didn't do and as well called me deragortory names comments getting involved with my relationship with John. I had to a few times place strong boundaries bc he has defended his brother while adding unnecessary stress on my shoulders blaming me etc. Which Father honestly even though he has PTSD within the last year I see the stress he has with his brother esp with his brother causing issues in our relationship. It's bc I'm staying at the home that his brother and his friends go to and drinks meanwhile John buys him food and alcohol. But John promised me he no longer will. When John has terminal cancer and combat PTSD working so hard. His brother just takes advantage of him and doesn't ever want to listen to John when he's expressed he wasn't doing well and wanted to let him know about the cancer but his brother Mike disregarded him. Father please forgive me for all my sins. I have extreme anxiety that his brother will continue to create issues with my relationship with John when I have not done anything. I'm still here with John I worry about his cancer his PTSD the stress his brother creates. John is truly a good man works so hard is caring intelligent he is my best friend. I ask for a miracle in his cancer and his PTSD. I asked John to help with basic things with his blind brother but to not enable him bc it's not helping his brother but most importantly it's not doing anything for his cancer and PTSD. I agreed to help him with the house with he lives in TX and the house is here in Southern California. So I go over water the yards and pruning and anything else he needs help with. I just expressed to John that if his brother continues with the drama I will need to stop as my health is affected. I have many health issues since 18 years old I'm 44 and had 2 strokes in 2015. I'm back at school to finish my undergraduate degree and post stroke school is challenging. I'm helping my sister's with my dad on occasion as he's 82, I don't have a great relationship with my father and since my strokes my relationships with sisters have been rocky as I placed boundaries. I'm trying to find a job as well so I expressed to John my anxiety when his brother blames me and talks about me when I have done nothing and creates problems in my relationship with John I started to skin pick which I'm on medication and seeing a therapist. It's a big mess Father. I give you my anxieties and stress. I'm placing boundaries helping family and John where I can but also helping myself. I want to Thank You Father so being my savings grace and showing me love. I will continue to pray keep hope and faith alive. Thank you for being such a support and love. Please watch over John and I pray for a miracle with his cancer and PTSD and please help him understand he needs to stop enabling his brother Mike and not to fall for his manipulations.he mentioned him and Mike hardly speak and just email that Mike gives him the silent treatment which I expressed to him he's trying to guilt you so you continue to enable him but him alcohol let his friend stay at house and continue to blame me and say deragortory comments names when I honestly have not done anything. In fact when John told me his brother wouldn't listen to him when he tried telling him about his health (cancer) I even offered to help his brother if something happens to John even after his brother was blaming for things. I only said this for John since all this unnecessary drama I don't need I said I will not tolerate your brother bullying me. I love John. Down on my knees...please take my anxiety away. In Jesus' name Amen.