Dear Heavenly Father,
It's been a while since I last left a prayer request. I've had so many stresses with going back to school after two strokes. I doing it but it's not easy. I along trying to rebuild my relationship with my two older sisters, been trying to help where I can but also help my boyfriend John and myself. I ask for prayers to continue keeping my boyfriends health from not getting worse. In 2021 he was diagnosed with a stomach cancer. He tried chemo, radiation, etc. It's been stressful. He even after chemo and radiation didn't work tried an alternative treatment. Cancer hasn't gone away but it hasn't gotten worse. I pray everyday for a miracle for John. He works so hard and has served military and government for 20+ years he was deployed and has been on 4 tours and suffers from extreme combat PTSD. Since the last year I alternate between a place I rent a room from my landlady to my boyfriends home in Southern California. He has financially supported his older brother whose 55. Since the last year I try to go over and help out but his brother has been creating drama blaming me for things I never did. We have since discovered John's parents growing up were both alcoholics and so is John's brother who is blind. I've been called names and such and really has created problems in my relationship with John. John is loving hardworking and intelligent but I told him he is enabling his brother and his brother manipulates him makes him feel bad and it got so bad I was called and blamed for so many things. I was minding my business focusing on school and anxiety got the best of me and I started to skin pick. I had to really be honest with John. Since things have been a bit rocky and John is doing his best to not enable his brother. His brother since John was upset how his brother and his brothers friend treated me as they go to the house that John pays for and paid for food and drinks. John placed a stop on that and since his brother is very quiet with him. John is still fighting his cancer his combat PTSD and trying to find a job in the midst of everything. I love John. I ask for prayers for him. I know he keeps saying he's my only brother and family and both his parents passed a long time ago. I never said he shouldn't help his brother but I did ask him to not enable his brother since his brother is an alcoholic and has been blaming and talking about m when I've done nothing to his brother. I also see the stress it takes its toll on John and his cancer. I worry and want to give you my anxiety and stress. I asked John that since his brother is acting like he's having a tantrum he should focus on taking care of himself. I get so upset he does so much for his brother bc he has a disability of being blind but he is also an alcoholic and placing blame on me getting involved in my relationship with John. I have stood up for myself. John even tried telling his brother about his terminal cancer and his brother told him I have to go I don't have time to talk. This got me so angry Father. Im thinking how can someone be so selfish and not care his sibling is very ill and how John works so hard to help him. Please I ask for continued prayers for a miracle for Johns health. I keep having conversations with John asking him to focus on him and his health. I'm also focusing on myself not asking for help as he's already stressed out. My apologies Im going on and on. Father, please forgive me for all my sins. I will continue to pray keep faith and keep hope alive. Thank you Father for your saving grace and love. I pray that Johns sent a miracle for his cancer and I'm able to spend life with him as well as helping with his relationship with his brother having John focus on himself and not enabling his brother going forward. I also ask for prayers for his combat PTSD. I know this is a lot. Thank your Father I love you.