Dear Heavenly Father
So it's been a few weeks now. I didn't pass my math class but spoke with my advisor and I can retake and trying to push through school but taking in one class at a time. School after 2 strokes is definitely challenging as most of my deficits were speech cognitive and memory. I'm not ok with not passing the class but I have to sit with it and be ok with it and retake course again. In the meantime I am trying to get John my boyfriend to work a time for me to move and I think I have to most likely find a job so I have medical insurance to help me but also so I can financially help John out. He's been taking all these consulting projects. Working is good but I can tell he's feeling stressed and with his combat PTSD and the Stage 4 Stomach Cancer he is still fighting...I'm just afraid of all the stress not helping him fight everything. I feel bad myself as I wished I didn't have all these health issues and was working and making good income to help John. He hasnt really given me a complete update on his health. Father, please help us guide us so I can move to TX and help him. I'm in CA not to mention I'm staying with my sister paying her rent and honestly it's not the healthiest for me. She's so angry at me and I feel like she hated me. I understand deep down she doesn't and she has issues of her own but I place a boundary ask her not to yell at me and so on. I just want my sister to be happy I know she suffers from depression. I trying to help her as I'm living with her but no matter what I do she ends up just angry at me which isn't healthy for me and my health. I keep things to myself sometimes I talk to friends but John is one I truly trust and well I need to be strong for him. Father please forgive me for my sins. Father, please continue to place your healing hands on John and rid of all the cancer cells in his body. I down on my knees praying for a miracle to have more time with my best friend and the love of my life. Please restore his health. We need your help we can't do this without your undying love and grace. Thank you for always guiding us and loving us. Thank you for what you will continue to do for John and I. My apologies for my explanation of what's going on and being all over the place. It's been a lot and doing my best to hang on. I will continue to pray endlessly, keep faith and keep hope alive. We love you Father. In Jesus'name. Amen.