Dear Heavenly Father,
I ask for prayers for my own immediate family. Since my strokes in 2015 my relationship with my 2 older sisters isn't existent. I honestly don't have trust anymore. I love them still but how things were handled and believe me I have given as much grace as I can. But with my therapy I have place boundaries as I need to take care of myself and my health. Last year my step mom passed and they asked me to live with my dad. I was full of anger and just disappointed. I understand that they financially have helped me when I was younger. But 1. I'm still having so many health issues of my own my father is 82 so he needs more care than they they spoke of. 2. My boyfriend John fighting Stage 4 Stomach Cancer. We have always had a long distance relationship due to his military govt work and or my own health issues. 3. I felt they were trying to control me as they have gotten involved in my relationship with John then I as a kid took care of my mom with zero to little help from both my older sisters and not even my father.
My sister told me my what happened with my dad as she took the day off to take him to a Dr appointment. He's not taking his meds and my sister told him he needs to or he will have a heart attack or stroke. He told my sister he doesn't want to talk to her ever again to saying she's always causing issues. He is now dating my late step mom friend who is widowed and now at 82 worried about his teeth. Wants dental work done yet he doesn't seem to care for his 3 daughters who he has never done anything for us. When my dying mom I was taking care of with no help from others in family he was dating my step mom. Father, please forgive me for all my sins. We have tried with our father but he's been abusive in past he has never changed. I'm waiting to hear back from social security so I can finally take this time to move to be with John spend time with him as I also focus on my health and finish school. I just don't know what to do...I'm usually the scapegoat of the family. It's one of the reasons my anxiety is always high. Even going through school I'm fighting to voices that were always brought up by my family. I know I'm my I'm not a bad person I'm standing my ground placing boundaries which makes everyone in my family angry as I go through therapy. I love my family but I also need to take care of myself as well. I'm at a lost...my beautiful late mother whom I miss so much was the one that held the family together. Please guide me and my family. For now I know it's best I love from a far also so I can spend well needed quality time with John and help him fight the Stage 4 Stomach Cancer. Im leaning on you Father I will continue to pray everyday, keep faith keep hope alive. Thank you for always being a guiding light in my life and thank you for what you will continue to do for me. In Jesus' name. Amen.