Dear Heavenly Father
I'm in tears I'm so exhausted. I live with my middle sister and in general I feel my whole family hates me. Father forgive me for all my sins. Father please guide me and my family. My sister Helen always just seems angry at me. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells no matter what I do she's angry. Im paying her rent as much as I can off disability. Im waiting to hear back if my disability will be approved. I still need it to continue with my stroke recovery and get back on my feet. Which is why I enrolled at ASU online transfer student to finish my degree. Since being chronically ill since 18 I went to school and worked full time back then eventually as more medical things happened I needed to just focus on work to have medical insurance. I am doing my best to move forward gained back my speech cognitive and memory of the most part just still takes me a while to process things and retain which school is a challenge but with having faith in you Father I know I can push through and complete eventually. Im just so torn I know my family loves me in their own unhealthy ways but this isn't healthy especially with all my health issues. Im in therapy placing boundaries and I understand they will be angry when I place boundaries but I also need to do this for me too to be healthy. Since my strokes they seem sooo angry and all my sister's and father do is yell when I don't even do anything. Please guide me and the family. Please guide my family and John. How they treated John was unfair and I understand why he's upset. I just want to live a healthy peaceful life and all this yelling and how they treat me is unfair. Which is ok. I've comes to terms with it place boundaries. Thank you Father for your love and guidance/undying grace. In Jesus' name. Amen.