Dear Heavenly Father,
I have some much going on it's overwhelming. I'm focusing on staying healthy as I have a lot of chronic health issues. Trying to get a long with my family but have to place boundaries as all my family does is yell at me. Most importantly my boyfriend who is fighting Stage 4 Stomach Cancer. Even though the drs have not given him a good prognosis he and I are doing our best to stay positive. He told me he will continue to fight (I know he is only for me) which breaks my heart because I hate to see him in pain. Stomach Cancer is not easy it's painful from what I'm seeing and read on. He told me he is staying faithful and trusting God. My concern is with his 20+ years of govt/military work he has PTSD. Holidays are the worst for him he told me the other night it's hard because he has so much guilt and feels as though he could have done something different to have his friends here. This is the first time he opened up about his survivors guilt from loosing his friends. Then he also a few months ago lost his niece from suicide. Father, I expressed to him it is not his fault his friends are no longer here with us he and others did their best and his niece I expressed to him it's not one's fault. Father, I pray he comes to you and lay his anxiety and feelings on you so he can have peace. John is such a good hearted person takes care of his blind brother and helps his family. Iv always known this about him it's why I stuck by listened and observe the signs you sent Father to stick it out and love on John. Father, please lay your hands on John and restore his health. We can't do this without your guidance and grace. We understand you are in control and we trust in you. I understand his cancer is not progressing I feel with the PTSD and family stresses this isn't good for his cancer. I have asked him to let me live with him to love on him have a normal peaceful not too stressful life with eating healthy and exercising as I need to as well with all my health issues. John is my best friend and I'm praying for more time with him. Father, please forgive me for all my sins. Father, thank you for all the guidance and love you have given to me and John and thank you for what you do for us. I will continue to keep faith and hope trusting in your Father. Please forgive my thoughts all over the place as truly that's what I'm feeling I'm all over the place and have tears. In Jesus' name. Amen.