My financial situation and the guidance and wisdom of not saying the right thing that would upset others especially my sister Kim she pays me $100 a week sometimes more I use for groceries if I want to save money for me to order food or pizza it comes out of my grocery store money she let's me live in our mother's house she has been dead almost 3 years and my sister is a good woman but she can be retaliatory I have moved from my mom's house to her house atheist twice and I have not got to live here unless I obey and agree with her I bought a cellphone because my other one was chipping and cracked on the screen so here I am getting something I needed to keep in contact with her and my other phone was not letting me do that so I am waiting on a retaliatory move on her part she loves me I know but she has to control me at least she sees it that way and that type of thinking has drove me to try and take my life because I didn't want to be controlled and manipulated every time I did not agree with what they wanted