Dear Heavenly Father
So far my boyfriend John Kemp whose fighting Stage 4 Stomach Cancer since January. I know he's fighting his battle with PTSD with military/govt job. I actually took the time in the morning yesterday to call the VA to speak with a wonderful woman also named Janet to help me figure out how to support John from afar. I've noticed he's been silent at times and wondering if he is experiencing triggers and flashbacks. The woman, Janet at the VA said signs John shows is very common with PTSD and she also mentioned with fighting the Stage 4 Stomach Cancer he's going through probably survivors guilt a long with questioning life his experiences with fighting cancer at the same time. She also confirmed how my family is reacting to his security clearance not being able to be around let alone speak of what he does is common. She did mention to me it seems John and I despite our long distance we truly care for one another. She advised me to not continue to explain the security clearance etc to my family since I already have and they are unwilling to understand and listen. She says it's very common and how unfortunate people do not realize how much one goes through to keep the security of our nation and themselves safe. Father please forgive me for all my sins. Father, I'm down on my knees I felt defeated to maybe a little crazy for listening to people like my family and new therapist about my relationship with John. Father, you sent so many signs in past years so I have a better understanding of what John goes through with his work and PTSD. He is amazing while dealing with stresses and his responsibilities he also financially supports his blind brother Mike and his late mother whom passed last year. I doing my best while I can't be with John at the moment to work on my own health issues to feeling so defeated. My friends i keep in my life have been a great support but many don't understand but one dear friend her husband is ex military and many in her family. Father, please comfort me guide me to inner peace. Please lay your healing hands on John and rid of all the cancer cells restore him back to good health so he can serve you. I'm asking for a miracle for more time with my best friend and love of my life. I am keeping faith, strong, hopeful and positive praying endlessly daily. In Jesus' name. Amen