Dear Heavenly Father,
Please forgive me for all my sins. I'm here to kneel with my hands up to you...expressing my guilt I feel for not helping with taking care of my father (whose recently widowed, my stepmother passed) my sisters are both older have jobs their own homes and healthy. I am living with chronic illnesses (diabetes, hypertension, PCOS), more than 5 years ago I had 2 severe strokes. Took me awhile to feel better and gain my speech back. I also have my boyfriend John Kemp (I continuously request for prayers here on this site for him he's been fighting stage 4 Stomach Cancer since January). We are long distance as his military/govt job is in TX I am in CA. My Dr agrees with my health it's best to let my sisters take care of my father. Father, I was angry still am because my sisters asked me to live withy father but I said no more due to my health but also I was my late mother's caregiver at a young age til she passed when I was 13. No one in the family helped really. So many ofy friends and even Dr says I did the right thing due to my health. Since I'm still long distance from my boyfriend John I do my best communicate with him daily whether he responds or not depending how sick he is feeling until I am able to go visit him. I'm in tears, missing my beloved loving mother. At times feel a lone and at a lost. Father, I'm afraid but I trust in you. Thank you for the undying love and support. Please guide me in dealing with my guilt and frustrations. Also, please lay your healing hands on John rid of all the cancer cells and restore him back to health so I can have more time with him. In Jesus' name. Amen.