* not for the faint of heart
I was psychologically abused as a kid. This relationship is estranged, narcissism and abuse has completely destroyed this family relationship. My attacker is not doing so well. He is sick, and in bad health. But I still have faith in God. I refuse to give into temptation and I pray for the forgiveness of my own sins. But I will not let my attacker hurt me anymore. I feel no remorse and no grief towards this monster who has tormented me for about seventeen years. I feel freedom, but not at the expense of my Mother, who I love dearly and trust with everything in my heart. I will not use foul language, and I will not let dark impulses deprive me of the forgiveness that God has granted me. I pray for all people who have experienced psychological abuse just for being themselves. I believe that I was abused because I was gay and closeted into my teens. I was a late bloomer. But this bigot had deprived me of my own sexuality based on false principles. He assumed power and control in the household through manipulation and trickery. I no longer have any interest of this destroyed relationship. But I still forgive God and love Jesus with all of my heart. After, I hope that you still can too.