Please pray for my son to understand my telling him to leave. I told him to gather his things and don't come back. I also told him I was ashamed of him. I can't take back any of those words and no one knows where he went. Please pray for me to be forgiven. Please pray that he sees how out of control he's been getting and that it's been escalating. I am ill and I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm so sorry. Please pray that he and my lord forgive me and something good comes of it. That he will be healed of whatever has possessed him, methamphetamine or cocaine, maybe. An act of contrition and apology for the unspeakable insults and lies he has hurled at me. I don't know if he's aware of the fabrications, and proceeds with intent to hurt, or if he is so ill he believes the lies are truth.